I never thought this time would ever come again in my life, the kind of time I left behind me ten years back.
It was the worst and at times suicidal. People grow, people learn from the past and most of them have faced such kind of time in their lives, ofcourse in its personalized variations…
But what I learnt from my time was nothing, but that I never wanted to face it one more time.
Comprehending the overlapping thoughts in my mind right now is not only difficult, but that your innermost fears can show up in the due course.
Though this might not be that dangerous, but it is a serious mess indeed. And this time, the factor’s control is not even bluntly in my hands.
On one hand though I have the satisfaction of being professionally settled and that is the only thing which is stopping me from ending it all. The silver lining in the cloud, perhaps.
Possibly, unknown faces give me more comfort and my trusted relations have jitterred it all.
I feel I can be happier with strangers than people of my own blood. Only God knows the reason behind this bitterness multiplying with each passing day. It is zero percent in my hands and that is what is making me lose my appetite, literally.
I don’t know what to do next or what shall I expect when I step out of my room now. Plus, this is not the only reason which bothers me, but one more.
Let that reason stay between God and me as that is the best place where it can be…
ABOUT THE AUTHOR- The writer is a 24 year old, Delhi girl who is quite opposite to what being a Delhi girl is supposedly like. She has always tried to come out of her shell, but faced restrictions even in the slightest of things. A lost soul, trying to find out the key to happiness and her life.
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